Thursday, January 7, 2010

Almost Back

Forgive me, I know it's been a while and I am almost back. I can already feel the "seasonal depression" hell starting to lift. I'm not sure why but my grief this year has seemed worse than ever.
The New Year itself is starting off with a bang, or maybe that's a bust. Christmas Day I was passed out cold by 6:30 at my Mother In Law's. I slept for 14 hours, and woke in the midst of one of my worst fibro flares ever. Aching doesn't really seem to describe the pain in my extremities, especially my arms. And, the exhaustion seemed like it would not end. I came out of it about 5 days later only to find the neuropathy in it's own flare. My hands and feet were incredibly painful and burning. I also have seemed to lost quite a bit of feeling in the tips of my pinky and ring finger on my left hand. I am finally showing some signs of having knuckles again. I am not sure why my hands have been so inflamed, even using my voice recognition program this si the first I have really used the computer in a few weeks other than to do some reading. I have finished all 17 books of the Laurell K. Hamilton Anita Blake Vampire Hunter series, and am now on book 7 of her Meredith Gentry fey series. Both are excellent. One would not think that simply scrolling down with the mouse could cause such pain and inflammation, apparently it can.
I am thrilled that in spite of the pain of the season I really did have a great Christmas and a wonderful New Year's Eve with my hubby. I hate that being able to have a little fun requires such a painful and exhausting payment. I am worried about my vacation the end of March. 4 nights and 5 days in the Caribbean for my cousin's wedding with my best friend. I am excited, and yet scared at the same time. Scared of the flare it will cost me.